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[[still in pieces]] [Tuesday December 1st, 2009 at 10:22pm]
[ mood | indifferent ]

Everytime I think of you
I always catch my breath
I'm still standing here
And your miles away
And I wonder why you left me
And there's a storm that's raging through my frozen heart tonight

... and i ain't missing you at all.

WRiTE:MEMORiZE:EDiT

reminiscing. [Thursday November 19th, 2009 at 1:53am]
[ mood | listless ]

sometimes it just hits me.


i miss who i used to be... i miss how things used to be.



i was so happy, in the beginning. all the time....


i miss who i was. how much hope and trust i had in people...




that's all disappeared now.
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rocks begin to tumble. [Saturday September 27th, 2008 at 4:28pm]
STOP take a breath. and get ready for the fastest race of your life.
it's all uphill from here with no room to pause.
if you do = FAILURE. if you fall behind = FAILURE.
tie those shoes tight, because rocks are gonna start tumbling.
so take a breath. arm yourself for the battle of a lifetime
for this race, will determine the rest of it.

WELCOME to ADMISSIONS.
 
( more edits... )


 
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[Friday August 8th, 2008 at 12:18am]
 
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[Thursday August 7th, 2008 at 11:59pm]


I tell you everything that is really nothing,
and nothing of what is everything,
do not be fooled by what I am saying.
Please listen carefully and try to hear what I am not saying
WRiTE:MEMORiZE:EDiT

find me here [Sunday July 13th, 2008 at 6:02pm]
[ mood | missing him... ]

 





and speak to me,
i want to feel you...
i need to hear you.

 

( survey... )
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life's little questions [Wednesday June 18th, 2008 at 12:33pm]

My Life Uncensored




TAKE THIS SURVEY!

Take this survey

Were you a planned baby? nope. and i'm the reason they got married
Were you the first? yep
Who was present at your birth? my uncle jeffrey i know... not sure who else.
Were your parents married when you were born? yes. for about 6 months i think.
What is your birth date? june 6th 1991
How would you describe your family? normalish
Are your parents married? Divorced? Seperated? divorced
Siblings or an only child? hannah and jonah
If you have siblings are you oldest, middle, or youngest? still oldest
Which parent do you get along with best? my mom by far. but my dad tries.
What do you fight about? lots of stuff.
Do you have step parents? not yet. maybe tony or andrea soon.
Do you have more than one best friend? yes. alyssa and janell
Do you share the same interests? alyssa and i are basically the same person. and janell and i are.. just us.
How high/low is your self esteem? i'm confident and satisfied with myself
Do you get depressed about things easily? no
Are you an extrovert or an introvert? im bubbly and a HUGE extrovert. im a people person
Are you happy? yes. don't let my puffy eyes confuse you. ahha. the notebook and allergies.
Do you live life to the fullest? i try to
Are you comfortable with the way you look? very.
Do you have any piercings? ears
Describe your hair? brownish. but the dye is coming out :(. but mainly my natural color. i have bangs and loosely curled
How do you dress? however i want. i dont match a lot but i really dont care! ha. but i look cute dont worry
Were you a strange child? i was a tomboy.
What did you use to love that you no longer do? ummmm cant think of anything sorry!
Was there anything in your past that was traumatizing? a couple things. but i have no regrets. i adapt and move on.
Do you have the same friends from when u were a kid? yes! alyssa and janell were my best friends when i was little... its funny how some things work.
What is your ambition? to make a difference.
Are you scared of growing old? yes
Do you want to get married? of course
Do you prefer indoors or outdoors? outdoors
What is your favorite season? summer
Favorite weather? hot
Do you like walking in the rain? love it
Are you a vegetarian? no. i dont think i could do that!
What is your favorite food? stuff my mom makes... anything homemade
What food makes you want to gag? bananas oysters and apple sauce
What is your favorite restaurant? olive garden, and chiles
Are you a fussy eater? not really. i dont really like restaurant food.and am easily satisfied
Are you single or taken? taken : ]
Do you think love is the best feeling in the world? i'm sure it is. but idk if i've felt it yet.
Do you believe in love at first sight? it could happen
What was one of your greatest experiences? wisconsin leadership seminar. hands down.
What was one of your worst? the cincinnatti night.
Have you ever thought you were going to die? yes. the rollercoaster...the circle one... THE RING OF FIRE! haha
Who was the president when you were born? i dont know and dont care all that much to look it up
What was the price of gas when you got your license? 3 something
Who is the 1st president you voted for? haven't yet
Where were you when the Challanger blew up? dont know
Where were you when you found out Princess Diana died? dont know
Where were you on Sept 11, 2001? in my big california house. my dad came and woke me up to watch the tv
How old were you when Hurricane Katrina hit? not sure. it was pretty recent wasn't it?

CLICK HERE TO TAKE THIS SURVEY!

More MySpace Surveys | Tired of MySpace?
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its been a long time... [Sunday May 4th, 2008 at 7:28am]
[ mood | blah ]




Don't give up when you still have something to give.
Nothing's really over until the moment you stop trying.

JP: So the other day i said ''Jews are pathalogical liars"... but i was referring to myself
JB: what have i done to you? you're turning into a jewish girl hahahaa
JP: (walks away) i can't believe your going to let me leave like this!
JB: i dont have any shoes on
JP: that wouldn't stop people in the movies
JB: thats cause the movies aren't real
JP: (sigh) meet you half way?

Just because it's not what
you expected, doesn't mean it
isn't everything you've been
waiting for all along.

I'm too afraid to let myself love you like I know I could.

If you can't handle me at my worst, you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.

you know damn well
we'd go crazy without each other

Walk a little closer to me,
feel my heart beat
I'll show you who I really am
You'll be on the edge of your seat

The most incredible feeling
is knowing that I make you happy.

I hate missing you,
but I love having you to miss.

All I know is that I fell in love with you,  and I've never been more frightened about anything in my whole life.

distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold.
it's for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone,
in exchange for a little time with the one they love.
it's for those knowing a good thing when they see it,
even if they don't see it nearly enough.

when you're forced to stand alone is when you realize what you have in you.

 


things to work on:

-do homework more
-try harder in general
-show i care
-stop swearing
-stop calling people names
-be more considerate
-listen more
-pause to think
-learn to take advice and requests
-learn to love myself more
-remember who i want to be
-work hard to achieve sucess
-stop procrastinating
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it's jordan bitch [Monday March 24th, 2008 at 10:45am]
[ mood | melting... ]

so lets see.
these past three weeks have been quite eventful.
i dont even know where to start,
what to begin with or
even HOW to express how i feel about them.



i wish i had that green of eyes.

I'm currently watching A Beautiful Mind, i love this movie
one of my absolute favorites.
and once this is done, i will be going to moms to get some stuff for the fishers
i'm babysitting this whole week. till saturday pretty much


aww shoot! i can't watch the last like minute of the movie,
so now "Piece of Me" by briitttneeyyyy
ha. okay well got to go.


--PEACE--

 

 
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official [Sunday March 9th, 2008 at 3:36pm]

 
2.27.08




so i've spent the past... maybe four hours on the computer
doing absolutly nothing but looking for photos
i'm not really sure why either
but even after that, i still haven't found
a picture that would fit in this entry.
some almost get the feeling, but not completly
at least i can say i tried.



Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

How can I stand here with you
and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

How can I stand here with you
and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you
and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want,
You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need,
you're everything, everything.

And How can I stand here with you
and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you
and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?


Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?





p.s. i have a thing for
lake and sunset pictures.


 




 
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[Sunday March 2nd, 2008 at 12:56am]
( survey )

 
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addition#2 [Sunday February 24th, 2008 at 10:51pm]
 
( surveys )
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addition [Sunday February 24th, 2008 at 10:23pm]
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longggg [Sunday February 24th, 2008 at 6:08pm]
[ mood | im zoning ]

  



i really do hate livejournal. again it deleted what i wrote.
it was poetic. and will probubly not be as good again.
but i will try nontheless. 

i have a lot of emotions right now.
so get ready for a torrent of them.

so i really dont know where i started off.
i guess im makin it up. lets see.....

i really dont know why i do this.
i think its becuase it makes me feel secure.
to record some parts of my life.
i think that one day i will like the fact
that i can look back and remember
EXACTLY how i felt at one point.
and no matter what, these stories and feelings are me.
they will not change, they will be here.
it's my small mark on the world.
and although it may be small or even miniscule
its there. it gives proof of me and of my life.
of my existence. i was here. and i think that's really all i need.

BE WARNED::
THIS IS MY LONGEST ENTRY EVER!
AND WILL MOST LIKELY NEVER BE EQUALLED.
ITS OVER 6 PAGES LONG. SO SIT BACK AND RELAX
CAUSE YOU GOT A LONNGGGG WAY TO GO.





 
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"adam brody is sexy" [Monday February 18th, 2008 at 12:07am]










FUCK GOD DAMN EVERYTHING.
aksjdjfdlk;jas;ldhg;aejhfe;lgkasd
fadkashdg;jh
shit i just typed up something long and beautiful and it deleted.
its all adam brody's fault.
i hate adam brody


RULE NUMBER
NEVER LET EVEI HAVE A SQUIRT BOTTLE AT NIGHT WHEN SHE IS OVERTIRED!!!





so i guess ill type something else up tomorrrow.
cause now im annoyed.



ADIOS BITCHES



p.s. it was a great day.
i was carried upsidedown down a staircase
point made.
WRiTE:MEMORiZE:EDiT

i wish i could fly [Saturday February 16th, 2008 at 10:32pm]
[ mood | apprehensive? ]



so its happening again
and quite frankly im terrified.
wow i feel different.
i bet everyone says that.
eveytime is different. i think i now believe them.
so are army guys my new type er what?
hahaha. we will see. but im excited and a mess
of emotions. once again. sometimes i hate that i loose control
and think about him too much. it makes me feel stupid and needy
but you now what? i love it at the same time.
cause its exhilarating sometimes. to feel emotion and to just feel.
WRiTE:MEMORiZE:EDiT

IS IT ENOUGH? [Wednesday December 19th, 2007 at 10:19pm]



Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
Its my lullaby
Sometimes I drive so fast
Just to feel the danger
I wanna scream
It makes me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
Id rather be anything but ordinary please

To walk within the lines
Would make my life so boring
I want to know that I
Have been to the extreme
So knock me off my feet
Come on now give it to me
Anything to make me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
Id rather be anything but ordinary please
Id rather be anything but ordinary please.

Let down your defences
Use no common sense
If you look you will see
That this world is
A beautiful, accident, turbulent,
Succulent, opulent, permanent
No way
I wanna taste it
Dont wanna waste it away

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
Its my lullaby

Is it enough?
Is it enough?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
Id rather be anything but ordinary please
Id rather be anything but ordinary please

Is it enough?
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
Id rather be anything but ordinary please
Id rather be anything but ordinary please.
WRiTE:MEMORiZE:EDiT

lava lamp moments [Wednesday December 19th, 2007 at 9:49pm]



To live is the rarest thing in the world.
some people just exist, that is all.




between the trees= good band



sorry its been so long.
i really dont know what to tell ya!
ive been stressed out of my mind. truthfully

and i know how you've hurt
and been dragged through the dirt
but c'mon, get back up
it's the time to live
WRiTE:MEMORiZE:EDiT

[Sunday December 9th, 2007 at 9:16pm]
 
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"one day more...one more day all on my own" [Friday December 7th, 2007 at 11:08pm]



tomorrow we'll discover
what our god in heaven has in store
one more dawn ... 
one more day... 
one day more.





so im  kind of lonely right now.


janell=ACT tomorrow
ted=movie
evie=no
hannah=babysitting.




p.s. hannah and i skipped some school today
to see "The Golden Compass" it was great.
her first time. and i'm glad to have been there.
i love that girl more then she will ever know...







so solve my lonliness i will go upstairs
sit in my room
listen to Eldest.
and probubly fall asleep.
at least i went to the game tonight.
ha, how quickly
happiness turns to depression.
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